WITH PAINT I CAN LET GO

I wrote earlier that I had recently started with paint therapy to escape the Lyme Disease pain. I had never before held a brush to paint anything but wall, but like many, I wished I could paint artistically. In school I had no imagination, or ....I didn't dare to let it out. We all have imaginations, and we all have the "inner voice." It's a different whispering to our mind and heart.

I have a talented friend who is a true Artist. You should see her paintings, they are amazing. We SKYPE ones a week, and she is my paint therapist/coach. Its amazing when she looks at my paintings and reads my "inner me" through them. Her statements are right on the spot, and many times really fantastic, totally incradable. Things I have been telling myself in the morning to do better, she then later confirms to me in her interpretation of my work.

Today we spoke about what scares us the most. I realized that I was afraid of showing others what I had made. Don't get me wrong, I love painting or rather "strongly like" is I prefer to say....I play with the colors.
So tonight, after one hour of mind-blowing and inspirational therapy with my coach Rita I challenged myself. I asked myself...."why the fear?"
Is it because my paintings are childish? Do I fear rejection? Afraid people will laugh at something I take seriously? Or.....

At least I know, and I am proud over myself....I dared to step out of my comfort zone.

This painting my beautiful daughter created. She is 8 years old and as you can see, we have the same paint technique :-) I am proud over her too; extremely so.

This one,  Olivia and I made together....she did the "AWL" which of course stands for Animals Without Limits, our organization, rescuing animals.

Now that's color fun with a lot of heART to it!

And colorful Amore!

THE COLOR OF YOUR BRUSH

Good morning! ..... Please forgive my big gap of silence on this, my blog, for quiet some time.   I am now back after a long summer with many memories of different kinds of emotions.  The coming autumn will be one full of Spiritual work.  When a challenge turns up in your life, its time for Spiritual work. Big challenges require big work --- imagine "Extreme Makeover - Spiritual Edition".  All the questions are turning up. I am going to write about them since it reflects so many different subjects in life.

With my Chronic Lyme Disease and my own stubbornness, it many times makes a kind of conflict within me. Stubbornness can be something good, if used in the right direction.  I used it wrong!  I stubbornly told my body I couldn't take it easy and relax when that is what my body was desperately asking me for.  My energetic mind wanted to do so many things, and constantly new things came up inside of me that I wanted to start. And of course in a big house with two younger children and twelve dogs, who was I kidding?

Unfortunately, I have now suffered a very bad relapse with the Lyme, and am back on square three out of ten.  I was so happy in August when I was on square seven it seemed, for quiet some time.  But I will be back, since I am a stubborn Swedish Viking, who has to learn to use my stubbornness in another way.  I must stubbornly eat better, relax more and deal with emotional conflicts more calmly until I get my new referrals to the Infectious Disease Klinikum at Tubingen University.

Meanwhile I have re-discovered painting.  I love it!  Standing outside in a wonderful atmosphere and just letting the brush take over the colors and the canvas.  When I do that, for a little while, my mind is floating away, and I cannot feel my pain anymore....

That's Amore!