WILL I GROW?

I asked my art/life therapist last Thursday if I would grow, from painting like a second grader to paint as a four grader?

I love playing with the colors, and I have no idea what I am doing. My inner child gets to come out and be creative.

I just paint and never have a clue of what it will become. I thought I started to paint a puppy, but obviously my love for Seniors took over my brush (smiling)

The tears came and I "asked" the painting why?

"Many are so afraid of adopting Senior dogs"

That's why I painted the crown with hearts, since for me...they are the KINGS.

I love Senior dogs.

That's Amore!

THE COLOR OF YOUR BRUSH

Good morning! ..... Please forgive my big gap of silence on this, my blog, for quiet some time.   I am now back after a long summer with many memories of different kinds of emotions.  The coming autumn will be one full of Spiritual work.  When a challenge turns up in your life, its time for Spiritual work. Big challenges require big work --- imagine "Extreme Makeover - Spiritual Edition".  All the questions are turning up. I am going to write about them since it reflects so many different subjects in life.

With my Chronic Lyme Disease and my own stubbornness, it many times makes a kind of conflict within me. Stubbornness can be something good, if used in the right direction.  I used it wrong!  I stubbornly told my body I couldn't take it easy and relax when that is what my body was desperately asking me for.  My energetic mind wanted to do so many things, and constantly new things came up inside of me that I wanted to start. And of course in a big house with two younger children and twelve dogs, who was I kidding?

Unfortunately, I have now suffered a very bad relapse with the Lyme, and am back on square three out of ten.  I was so happy in August when I was on square seven it seemed, for quiet some time.  But I will be back, since I am a stubborn Swedish Viking, who has to learn to use my stubbornness in another way.  I must stubbornly eat better, relax more and deal with emotional conflicts more calmly until I get my new referrals to the Infectious Disease Klinikum at Tubingen University.

Meanwhile I have re-discovered painting.  I love it!  Standing outside in a wonderful atmosphere and just letting the brush take over the colors and the canvas.  When I do that, for a little while, my mind is floating away, and I cannot feel my pain anymore....

That's Amore!

WAKING UP FROM COMA LAND INTO COLOR LAND

 

 I feel like I am re-born again!

Like the Princess that slept for 100 years and woke up by a kiss-- but, no one kissed me. Perhaps, one of our 13 dogs?

I feel like I have been in a dark coma and only recently awoken. I don't recognize myself but I like the new me.

Colors, colors and colors. I want so much color around me and on me. This colorful dog always makes me happy to look at.  I love him and I make sure he got a good spot in my house.

The Lyme disease really knocked me to the bottom, but I fought my way back up. I felt I was close to dying and it was a vulnerable, scary time filled with demons and fog dancing around my bed. Yesterday I said to a friend that I wouldn't wish this disease on anyone, and I wish I could help everyone who has it.  My Lyme Friends I am always thinking of you.

 My therapy is to paint, and I have taken it up, together with my daughter. First I didn't want to show them since I am not an artist, but then I noticed how much fun it is to guess what comes out from the brush. And friends enjoyed it too.

"That's Amore!" has long been my catch phrase, really solidifying when I wrote for Magazine NARA for three years.  Still on Facebook, I end my posts with it. After many years, and stories from Italy...That's Amore!

I painted the Earth with colored sperm around it, fertilizing our World with love. Olivia (8 years-old) came up and said she loved my painting.  I asked her if she knew what it was?

"Mom! I love the tadpoles!"

Olivia painted this wonderful colorful painting with horses and jewels.  It made me think of horse selling a long time ago from Europe to Turkey.

It is so much fun to look at the paintings and try to translate them.   We each find our own meaning among the colors and shapes. What is your Color?

That's Amore!